Finnick Uaisele Langford

Finnick is finally here. I'm so happy to not be pregnant anymore & that he came here safe and sound. I went in at 5:30am on Monday morning March 28th for my repeat c section. for some reason i had more anxiety about this c section than the last one & the night before i was really psyching myself out. i just wanted to get the whole beginning part over with(the needle in my back/nausea & something new this time-thinking i cant breathe) its funny- a friend told me that she had felt like she couldn't breathe in her last csection & that hadn't happened to me with the last 2. well after getting my spinal, i wasn't even thinking about that or anything but it happened. it was pretty scary but the nurse next to me was so great & she kept telling me to look at my oxygen levels & that they were at 99 percent & that i actually could breathe, it was just that my chest was a little numb so it just "felt" like i couldn't. so after the first miserable 15 minutes of feeling nauseated, cold & breathless i finally felt pretty warm & comfortable when they they started to take the baby out & when they were sewing me up i just felt really sleepy & comfy. it's the best feeling hearing your baby cry after he comes out. i love that part & it makes everything worth it. although the first 2 days i was pretty sore i was thinking. "yeah i'm done" but i forget things pretty fast cause now i'm thinking i could definitely try for that girl

-or that 5th boy. :)

our new camera has hd video & steven filmed him coming out. like where only his head is poking out of my stomach & they are pulling him out. it's a very vivid & clear video so you can see everything well. the video is actually pretty cool (and gross) but i wont share the inside of my uterus with you, you're welcome.

he was born at 7:47am & was 8lbs 2 oz.

i remember thinking "wow he has a loud cry" he really does!

we thought he might have curly hair at first but after his bath it was straight. this is the most hair any of my kids have had. & the first pregnancy i had heartburn with-so maybe it's true what they say.

trying to open his eyes for the very first time

Grandpa Fa. the name Uaisele is my dad's dad's name.

(Wesley in Tongan)

i love this picture. embry's face is the best.

2 days old.

i love him. like so much.

first day home

his after meals face. so full & sleepy.

i nursed him the whole time in the hospital, and he did so good! latched on really well. stayed awake 20 minutes on each side. but the night before i left they were worried that he lost 10% of his weight (was down to 7lb 5 oz) & wanted me to supplement until he gained some weight. well i continued nursing up until he was about 6 days old. i stopped because he would nurse for like 5 mins on one side, then fall asleep. & not want anymore after that until an hour later. well i spent that whole hour trying to keep him awake to eat some more. so basically i was glued to the couch & oh, i freaking hate breastfeeding. i so want to like it. and i think people who do it are amazing! i'm sure it wouldve gotten better, but i just gotta do what doesn't stress me out. i want him to have breastmilk so i just decided to pump like i did for the twins, and i like it so far. he has been on a schedule of every 3 hours (at night sometimes 4 and half!) and actually drinks like 3-4 oz of bmilk each time! i pumped for 4 months with the twins. my goal is 6 months this time, depending on how good he does with formula.

8 days old-

we are all in love with baby finnick! arent you?!